Amazing Grace

I once was lost but now I'm found...

In October 2004 I made the bold decision to move across country by myself. I needed to see what else life had in store for me and without a doubt the trip was worth it. I have matured and learned new things by leaps and bounds and I now ask myself this question...

What is important in life? There are many different answers to this depending on who you ask but for me I have discovered it is friends and family. I miss you all very much. The thing is that I didn't feel the loss until just recently and I believe there is a divine reason for this. I believe to have felt the loss of my friends and family while on this particular journey would have gotten in the way of the destination. And as cliche' as it sounds I needed to "find" myself.

I now believe the purpose of the move across country is fulfilled. But now what? I feel a need to be closer to home. The need I feel is so strong it almost feels as if I am being drawn there by another force. Does somebody need me? Do I need somebody? I don't know. What I do know it is it critical decision time once again. I am asking anyone who cares to, please feel free to give advise or an opinion. The first move was crystal clear to me. This time I am not so sure or at least not yet anyway.

I also want to add this one last thought that is on my mind tonight: This is the eve of the 5th anniversary of September 11th. When I sat down to write 60 Minutes was on TV and since I started writing the show has ended and a show about 9/11 is on. I cannot see the TV but I can hear it. I hear the sounds of sirens, panicked people and first responders radios. It really puts life in perspective. God Bless everyone and their families who lost a loved on one that tragic day.